Today was the earliest I could test to see if I'm preggers or not. Since I've been feeling SO exhausted and weird lately I thought FOR SURE. Sadly, this morning I woke up at 4:45am to pee into a cup so I could test before Husbando left for swimming and work, only to not have that little blue line turn up. It was sad and I have felt defeated and unmotivated all day. I thought it would be so much easier than this. And it's frustrating because I like to plan. And I'm looking like a fucking idiot already rubbing my belly and talking to it, picking out baby names with Husbando all weekend, cleaning like a crazy person like a baby is moving into our house next week, planning my maternity leave and what dates we are going to tell various family and friends, putting reminders in my calendar to make a Kaiser appointment for my blood test for pregnancy and to ask my doctor about if I can take Claritin or not. And what does this tell you? That I am a CRAZY person. That all of this maybe baby having is making me CRAZY! I know, I know, my prego hormones might not be high enough for it to register on a take home prego test yet. I will test again this weekend. But I feel like I'm crazy since I've been so exhausted and crampy and not pregnant.
So, I've been working on my new business to distract myself. I started a course today through the SBDC about starting your own arts and crafts business and am also writing a business plan. So that is overwhelming enough to keep me busy.
In the mean time, Ralph is rolling through his straw and getting his nose covered in dirt. Here he is trying to lick his normally WHITE snout clean:
Look at that tongue!!!!!!